Yesterday I spent a good portion of the afternoon visiting with great girlfriends. It was an absolutely beautiful day for many reasons…the weather was great and the company even better. More than anything, the Lord was telling me things through these women that blew my mind. He used them to speak truth into my life and to reassure me of things I believe. What an awesome God we serve- one who knows exactly where we are, how we feel, and what we need to hear. I just can’t get over the fact that He cares enough about me to purpose that these days and conversations would happen. I love that God is all about the details. Psalm 139 is one that most of you know…yet what it speaks about the Lord never ceases to overload my heart. Read it through…
1O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
2You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
3You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
4Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.
5You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
7Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
8If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there.
9If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
10Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
11If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,
And the light around me will be night,"
12Even the darkness is not dark to You,
And the night is as bright as the day
Darkness and light are alike to You.
13For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother's womb.
14I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
15My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
16Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them.
17How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand
When I awake, I am still with You.
19O that You would slay the wicked, O God;
Depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed.
20For they speak against You wickedly,
And Your enemies take Your name in vain.
21Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
22I hate them with the utmost hatred;
They have become my enemies.
23Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
24And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.
Wow! The hairs of my head are numbered…before one day came to be, He knew it! I love that God has worked in other people’s lives so that they may grow and learn, but also that when they are obedient, their experiences can be used to impact my life. Likewise, if I am seeking to follow Him, what I have learned can also help others. So why do I worry? God is so all over the details. He has a plan and I know that it will work out perfectly in His timing. After yesterday, I was reminded that the things I concern myself with from day to day are not worth the pain I let them cause. I need to find that place where I wait patiently for the Lord and serve Him in the time that I have.
Thank you Lord for giving us relationships. I am constantly amazed at how you use people in my life to draw me nearer to you. Lord I ask your blessings on those that are obedient to you in being transparent enough to teach me. Thank you for being a perfect God in control of everything. If I were in charge of all those details there would surely be disaster. Help me to quit trying to do your job, and mostly to wait for your timing. In this current season, I pray that I will spend my time serving that you may glorified…Amen
