Clarity and Confusion

It is interesting.
Isn't it?
When you find out the truth.
That you wish you didn't.
When everything is clear.
But then you are so confused.
And you wish the question remained.
But then you'd be too naive.
So you've figured it out.
And now there's pain.
A sickening feeling.
Yet you find relief.
Because the wondering is gone.
Has it always been obvious?
And you only ignored it?
Or did something change?
And is it your fault?
Or was it meant to be?
And it only took time?
Life could be easy.
But how would you grow?
God has a plan.
That's all that you know.

I Feel

disappointed
taken advantage of
under-appreciated
unwanted
helpless
unnoticed
unloved
out of place
uncomfortable
unimportant
incompetent
incomplete
left behind
hurt
unworthy
angry
irritated
unsure
forgotten
YET
loved
cared for
important
wanted
noticeable
purposeful
unique
special

feelings are a blessing and a curse.