"fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God" - Hebrews 12:2
Finished my first semester of teaching kindergarten
Sang again in the Countryside Christmas Musical
Went skiing with the Lester’s in Breckenridge, CO
Spent Christmas in WF with the family
It has really been a whirlwind of a year. So much happened. But, if I were to sum it up, I would have to say that most of all, it was a year of growth. I grew tremendously in my walk with the Lord through studies at Countryside and because of personal trials that came along. I had to "grow up" and become an adult with this whole graduating and getting a job thing. A couple relationships grew and changed in ways that still amaze and bless me to this day. So maybe that is what life is all about. Changing and growing and learning. I totally love it. I can look back on this year and know that I am not where I was. I am not who I was. God has some kind of greater purpose. I am so thankful that He loves me too much to let me remain the same, even for a year. Even when that means change, or pain. Praise You, Lord, for growth. You amaze me.
This year we went to Breckenridge, and it was absolutely wonderful!There was a very different group from last year…very few of us. But, I totally loved it just as much! Following are reasons:
1.I I love skiing.
2 I I love Colorado.
3.I I love road trips.
4.I I dearly love the people I went with.
Sounds like a winner to me. After a long semester of transition, this trip was much needed, and although I was so tired after it, I was also rejuvenated. I don’t think I would really ever want to live in the mountains, just because to me it is such a vacation thing. I love that when I go to that part of the country, I can just sit and marvel at the beauty. I enjoy being able to fall in love with it and with our Lord every time. I am repeatedly amazed at how beautiful God made the mountains. I am also encouraged by how beautiful He made people, inside and out. Although we are all fallen people, God really made every person amazing in some way. For that reason, I cherish quality time and getting to see those glimpses of His character in my relationships with others.
Here are some pics to recap:
Tommie Lee and I have skied together the last two years and have a great time together!
Halle is such a precious blessing in my life! I am SO proud of her and Jevyn for dominating on their snowboards this year!!
Well, I have finished teaching my first semester of kindergarten, and I have so many thoughts and feelings about it that I struggle to decide where to begin. It has been a whirlwind for sure. The last day of school before Christmas break was a long anticipated day, yet when it finally came and went, I literally drove away from my school with an uneasy feeling. Much thought to follow in the hour in the car I had ahead of me. I headed toward Stillwater where I would spend the evening with good friends and then get in a van to head to Colorado to go skiing. That is where I find myself today, sitting in a lovely condo in the mountains in beautiful Breckenridge, CO. I sit in front of the fire with tired legs after a day full of skiing, taking in the greatness of all that our God has created and loving watching how people are enjoying it. Whether they know it or not, they are a part of something huge...we all are. And in that, I see so much.
Am I making a difference in lives of my students? Do they know how much I love them? Have I taught them enough? Will they be ready for 1st grade in only a few more months? As I left school on Friday for our two week break, I felt uneasy. I have all these questions running through my mind. And honestly, I think I know the answer to the questions. We did what we needed to do. No, it was absolutely not perfect, but they learned, and I surely did. We made progress, but I think that I just felt funny about it because it was just not everything that I had ever hoped and dreamed. I am definitely relieved that one semester is done. There will certainly never be another like it. And in short, I'd say I am pleased.
Some lessons learned: be strict from day one, be consistent, have explicit expectations, procedures procedures procedures, plan plan plan, differentiate, movement, small groups.
So there it is. One semester down. Tired. Needing rest. Reflective. And in it all, I think about how God is working things out. He has this huge plan that is so much grander than anything I can think of. It's a truth that I must cling to. When the days are hard, I know I have to hold to the promise that God is always with me, working it out for good. There is purpose. My life is His. Whether I love where I am or not, I have to live as a servant of the Almighty King. And what better time of year than now to remember about living a life of surrender to the One who became flesh that He might save us. God found Mary faithful and used her to bring about the most amazing plan of all. May He also find me faithful, and find me fit to use even more to further His love in this world.
Let us all surrender our lives to the One who knows best, the One who will make something out of what we see as nothing, the One who turns hardship into victory, and the One who created the majestic mountains to let us see Him. Praise You, Lord, for You alone are worthy.
Well, it's been a while since I last wrote. Here is a quick update of my life: - went to Wichita Falls and spent some time with loved ones - went to Bedlam, the Cowboys lost :( - still loving going to Countryside - got cursed out by a student's parent - said parent threatened to sue me for child neglect - preparing for the Countryside Christmas musical! - went to a precious Ladies Christmas Brunch - took roadtrip to Vici, OK - played racquetball for the first time in long time! - hurt my back :( - gearing up for the ski trip to Breckenridge! - only 8 days of school left!!!
In the midst of it all, there have been some really hard days at school as well as in my personal life. I feel as though the Lord is really trying to teach me to wait and trust Him. There are things that I absolutely do not understand...things I wish were different...or easier. I find myself desiring things that aren't happening as quickly as I hoped, or maybe not at all. I don't understand why a lot happens just the way it does. I find myself questioning...looking for purpose in the current struggle. And you know, a verse that I think is often easily overlooked as cliche comes to mind with resounding clarity...Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."
So I am to trust, even when I don't understand why life happens the way it does. Not worrying, but trusting that God has a purpose. There is some reason. As we enter the Christmas season, I can't help but think about how confused Mary must have been at becoming pregnant as a virgin. How desperately she wanted answers...how she may have wanted her circumstance to be different. Yet she had to trust the Lord, not relying on what she understood of the situation. In the same way, I have to wait on the Lord's plan and trust. I have to live like I know that He is working all things out to accomplish His ultimate purpose.
Lord, during this season, may we really learn to trust You and You alone. Even though we may not understand the way life goes, let us live relying on the fact that You are Lord over all. May Christmas remind us that you have a plan that is beyond us. As we pray, teach us to wait on your answer, no matter what it may be. God, You are bigger and stronger than any of our struggles. Make Yourself known. Amen.
I am a disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ. I strive to live for Him- to know Him and make Him known. There are other things in life, but He is the one thing that matters! :)
