Pray, Wait, Trust

Well, it's been a while since I last wrote. Here is a quick update of my life:
- went to Wichita Falls and spent some time with loved ones
- went to Bedlam, the Cowboys lost :(
- still loving going to Countryside
- got cursed out by a student's parent
- said parent threatened to sue me for child neglect
- preparing for the Countryside Christmas musical!
- went to a precious Ladies Christmas Brunch
- took roadtrip to Vici, OK
- played racquetball for the first time in long time!
- hurt my back :(
- gearing up for the ski trip to Breckenridge!
- only 8 days of school left!!!

In the midst of it all, there have been some really hard days at school as well as in my personal life. I feel as though the Lord is really trying to teach me to wait and trust Him. There are things that I absolutely do not understand...things I wish were different...or easier. I find myself desiring things that aren't happening as quickly as I hoped, or maybe not at all. I don't understand why a lot happens just the way it does. I find myself questioning...looking for purpose in the current struggle. And you know, a verse that I think is often easily overlooked as cliche comes to mind with resounding clarity...Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding."

So I am to trust, even when I don't understand why life happens the way it does. Not worrying, but trusting that God has a purpose. There is some reason. As we enter the Christmas season, I can't help but think about how confused Mary must have been at becoming pregnant as a virgin. How desperately she wanted answers...how she may have wanted her circumstance to be different. Yet she had to trust the Lord, not relying on what she understood of the situation. In the same way, I have to wait on the Lord's plan and trust. I have to live like I know that He is working all things out to accomplish His ultimate purpose.

Lord, during this season, may we really learn to trust You and You alone. Even though we may not understand the way life goes, let us live relying on the fact that You are Lord over all. May Christmas remind us that you have a plan that is beyond us. As we pray, teach us to wait on your answer, no matter what it may be. God, You are bigger and stronger than any of our struggles. Make Yourself known. Amen.