Prayer

So I've been thinking a lot lately about prayer. Sometimes it really is all we have. And it's about trust. I feel like I am constantly learning how to trust the Lord in my personal life with specific situations that arise. But I'm seeing now that prayer is also about learning to trust God with others.

I am the type of person who loves largely by doing things for others. I love getting to serve and help out. When someone I love has a lot on their plate, I want to make life a little easier. It is something that I say not to pat myself of the back, but because it is something that I have struggled with lately. In moving to Tulsa, I have had to realize that I am not always going to be around those people that I am used to helping. Now, there is always service. There is always an opportunity to show the love of Christ to those around us. I am talking more about love in personal relationships. I am a fixer in many ways. When people dear to me are going through struggles, I always want to fix them, and I usually end up just helping in any way that I can. I delight in doing it. However, now, that is something that in many circumstances, I just cannot do.

Writing about it seems almost silly, but I think that the Lord is really showing me that although my heart desires to be with people that I love and be able to help, that sometimes I really can't be the fixer. I need to realize that God is bigger than me or the little things that I can do to temporarily help others. Yes, it is a way that I love, and I still think it's ok, but I also know that I can't do it all. I have to trust God to take care of loved ones. They are His children. And from the distance, all I really can do is pray. That He would work in their lives. That He would reveal Himself to them. That He would protect them. So I'm clinging to it. Praying... because it really is all I can do.

Pray.
Constantly.
Relentlessly.