So I just came to this realization. I have nothing to say. Allow me to explain. There are people in my life whom I love dearly that I do not get to see on a regular basis. People that I consider hugely special and important that I don't talk to very often. So tonight, I was thinking about how I would like to call and visit, but then the realization hit: I have nothing to say.
What's new?: nothing, I go to work, come home, run, eat, relax, sleep, and do it all again.
How is teaching?: still really hard, but we (the kids and I) are slowly and surely figuring it out
Found a church?: no, still going to Stillwater for church most weekends
Found a guy?: no, still waiting on the Lord to bring him around
It is a sad story I know, I just don't know what else to say. I feel like my life has become this boring routine that has left me completely uninteresting. I would like for this to be different. Maybe I can find some new ways to spice it up. This is a new time, a transition time for sure. So maybe I should just enjoy being able to relax and figure it out.
One thing I know for sure: Christ is the prize. Regardless of how challenging, lonely, or confusing this life can be. He is the great reward and I need to focus my efforts on serving Him through the journey.
To those of you whom I may not be keeping in touch with as much as normal, bear with me through this time. I'm learning and I'm trying to figure it out. Your prayers mean the world to me and I love you dearly.
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Hang in there!!!! I know its not always fun...but I have to tell you that being married has the same types of trials. Enjoy this season! I promise when its over, you will miss certain things about it. The new season will be really great, but you can't get the previous season back. This is your time to engulf yourself in serving the Lord ONLY! Your priorities change when you are married. They are just as important, but different. This is the time of your life that you can give you ALL in whatever ministry you want to serve in. HAVE FUN!!!! I'm not trying to make light of your situation or make it sound trivial, but SERIOUSLY!!!!! think of every little thing that sounds fun to you....and GO DO IT! You have sooooo much "free time" right now, whether you believe me or not. Get that "bucket list" started and fulfill some of them. Don't get down on or stuck on the ones you want to do when you married...write those down too....but enjoy and seek the blessings God has for you now! Love you so much my friend...and know that I don't call you for the same reasons. haha! :)
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